Wednesday, December 30, 2009
♥ i miss you!
ytd ytd such a bad night, keep on thinking non stop i cant even sleep fuck it. i think alot like really alot. why is it so i really dont understand. im not suppose to be emo anymore but i dont know why. maybe the fact that im afraid that we might not be together anymore or be the same. :( the thought of this makes me sad. i wanna be with u for my life. i dont wanna go out there to be choosing another girl. i want to choose u. i know u love her new girlfriend now. what if u cant leave her after 3 years? how are u able to cut contact i dont think u can do it/ :( i know no point worrying or thinking so much over this but ytd night the thought just keep on flooding my mind. i figured that i wouldnt be enjoying my 3 years. i wont deny i wont see other girls. except for this i wont be doing other shits. i figured that me and you could still satisfy each other on bed. so i do not need anybody else. other than this major factor there;s nothing more i can be cheating on u about. drinking dont really count, of course i know i wont be making myself drunk then make things worse for me. sometimes i hope things between u and her just disappear. i know it;s not a good thing to think about. hmmm thinking of ytd night where u late night talk with her reminds me of us :( i was very sad ytd. i miss u like really miss u. i miss the cute u i miss the times where u will be act to let me sayang u. i miss the times that we kissed each other so hard and hug each other so tight where in our eyes there's nothing else. but things changes. now here i am holding on to u tightly. i can tell u here that after 3 years thing will be the same for me. you'll be like a new girl. my first date ever again. things will be better for me. but i dont know about your feeling. i know ur new girlfriend will not be ur life. but i might not be ur life too.. what if u met someone else along the way and he treats u better :( sigh so many thoughts and questions but i dont wanna keep typing make u read like siao only.
i want u to know that anybody can turn your back on u except me. trust me baby put ur pride down for me. whenever who bullys u and u feel that u needed someone, come find me even if we are quarrelling or small things or we alr dont contact much. i'll still hear u out. i will not leave u. even if u tell me how perfect your r/s was and the next day u 2 broke up, u feel embarrassed. dont be, i will not laugh at u. im not your foster, just let me help u get up again. i know no matter how perfect u can say ur r/s is, there's definitely some flaws. i just dont want u to be hiding everything from me. just wanna be ur 24/7 shadow to hear u out. i love u baby. my heart is locked for u. 3 years later i will do whatever it takes to woo u back and i'll marry you.
i want u to know that anybody can turn your back on u except me. trust me baby put ur pride down for me. whenever who bullys u and u feel that u needed someone, come find me even if we are quarrelling or small things or we alr dont contact much. i'll still hear u out. i will not leave u. even if u tell me how perfect your r/s was and the next day u 2 broke up, u feel embarrassed. dont be, i will not laugh at u. im not your foster, just let me help u get up again. i know no matter how perfect u can say ur r/s is, there's definitely some flaws. i just dont want u to be hiding everything from me. just wanna be ur 24/7 shadow to hear u out. i love u baby. my heart is locked for u. 3 years later i will do whatever it takes to woo u back and i'll marry you.
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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