Thursday, December 31, 2009
♥ i miss you!
i went to club "rebel" ytd night. u called me on the phone i didnt know how to tell u i felt like it wasnt right yet. but still somehow u will know the truth. nothing much happen in the club. JJ was drunk i had to support him and take in his nonsense all the time. anyway we had free entry and we stayed not long then we had to send jj home alr. then i went home thinking alot again.. i rolled for hours i guess. so many thoughts coming to my mind again. i miss u so much. i pull the drawer every morning. the feeling sucks. i dont know how did we became like this. i gave u ur new found love. hoping things might be better for us. but everynight i feel even worse. you're starting to get out of hand and new things are coming in for her even small things also affect me i really dont know why maybe i love u too much. things like u wouldnt save her sms that kinda thing. you're doing so much for her. why is it so?!?!?!? where is our 15 months strong love? it wasnt fate. something went wrong there... i just couldnt figure out i know after u read this u might feel more sad and stress. i dnot want u to be like that in fact, i hope u can start telling em more things instead of u're damn busy at work. your msn nick "thursday..." well nvr been thru things like that before..i keep tinking.. will we really get back? for me definitely.. unless i fall in love again which is not likely.. yuo're prolly going to last with her.. 3 years. u dont even know how u can cut contact... dont pull in so deep baby pls i beg u.. going to lesbain club. u gonna know more les soon enough u will be in too deep u cant even get out. sigh i really want u to start talking to me. tell me all the shits. i need to know what;s happening inside u. i feel fucked up. i need u to stop lying to me. if u cant update me then dont say u will. if u cant call me during break then dont say u will. it's all false. i need honesty from u baby. i cant live on like that. what is it u raelly want me to do for this 3 years? to get out there to love others? or stay by u all this while? i wanna be dumb and trust u for the last time i need u to start talking. i really wanna make u my life partner. there's no girl out there that will give me the same feeling when holding u. why did things became like that!?!?! i give u my everything and now im risking for a chance.. u might not be back...
♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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