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Tuesday, April 13, 2010

♥ Tuesday, 13 April, 2010

i failed my basic theory... seriously i despise people that always use "FML" BUT NOW I GOT NO OTHER WORDS TO DESCRIBE MYSELF.. im just losing myself losing everything.. sitting by here now in the room hoping i might see u but i know it's quite impossible alr... i miss you but i just couldnt find the courage to contact you.. but sometimes when i think about stuffs of u i hate it... i really feel the anger inside myself to hate u.. so many thoughts why cant u just be another faithful girl? u said u;re so tired to the extent that u dont msg anybody now but when i go home i see u happily chatting with him on msn. wtf eh? u say you're tired but it appears that you yearns more from him.i feel so fucking sick when i see of all this... i wanna cry but i just really cant. i dont know how to cry for u anymore...u always say that u're just fooling around but now why are u getting so affected by him? u're so affected that now u even doubt u can last this love with me. ridiculous isnt it? i feel so like confronting u asking u all this but i just couldnt find the courage to do so.. is it true that u really chose me and u will nvr leave me? i doubt it now.. every now and then , i feel that u're gonna leave me for him for good because he might be better and u feel fresh with him.. :(:(:( i so fking sad now how i wish i got u beside me to enlighten me.. but u just didnt came today... making a big mistake..in my mind i was tinking, if u came i might forgive u if not after today im gonna ignore u.. sigh why are u doing all this? why are u giving in all this to fate. u claim u really need me but u dont appear to be it.. why is pride still so important until now? what's wrong with u eh... before all this. i was wondering if my basic theory could decide our fate of being together.. because it's the first time we nvr contact for so long and u didnt wish me for any luck so does it mean that if i fail = i really need u? and when i pass? = i dont need u.. well i really dont know but i did failed.. im still quite lost.. i wnat u but at the same time i just feel that im not ready for what u want to do.. i dont think i might be able to take this i might just let u pass i guess... :(

♥ And did I tell you that I love you tonight
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    23rd August ;Watched Fireworks
    01st September ; First movie together,4bia
    03rd September ; When i first step foot in your house
    05th September ' First phone marathon
    09th September ; The first time i went school to look for you
    11th September ; When we both first shed tears for each other
    12th September ; Our first pet ! TERRAPINS!
    13th September ; The first time my heart died
     15th September ; We ALMOST broke up
    20th September ; FIRST DATE!
    24th September ; First present and letter from baby (:
    11th October ; First cycling date! (to upr pierce reserviour)
    13th October ; First Web-Cam date
    18th October ; Cried in front of baby for the first time!
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    29th November ; Just the 2 of us shopping tgt for the first time!

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